4th angel day

happy 4th angel day little honey

Mckinley's blessing and 3 years old today!

This weekend was mckinley's blessing so my parents flew out with my little bro nathan (who is now taller than me, so it is official--i am the shortest in my family! Also, ry's parents got sick so they couldn't come:( ) So we celebrated harrison's bday (which is today the 9th) with them sat. by shopping, swimming, cake, ice cream, and tons of presents (he got way to many things thanks to grandma and grampa!)! He had such a great time! Then it was mckinleys blessing sunday morning. That went wonderful--a wonderful blessing, testimonies (even one from a family that ry baptized on his mish that just got sealed in the temple last week, that came!), and the spirit was strong. We then fixed and ate a midday dinner and we went to show my family the Oakland Temple. It was beautiful! Thanks mom and dad for coming out, we had a great weekend!

Happy Birthday my mesmerized special 3 year old (i will journal about just him later)

A moment of silence please...

I'M FREE!!!!  MY SIX WEEKS ENDS TONIGHT!!!

(hopefully we feel better tomorrow to go somewhere :)!!)

Colds...

I let Harrison go to nursery last Sunday because: 

1.  Last week Harrison was going through the mail with me and saw a picture of some kids in an add and he took it from me and just stared at it and said, "I love kids."

2.  We went for a walk outside and he saw a kid across the street and he just stopped and stared at him...I couldn't get him to keep walking and he said, "I love kids."

3.  Everyday he says MANY TIMES, "I love friends. I love kids."

So I couldn't handle keeping him at home anymore.  And of course Tues. night (when Ryan was out of town) he was up a lot and then woke up with a runny nose (quite a fun night, running back and forth between him and then feeding Mckinley--I'm sure you all can relate).  Then 

Thursday Ry didn't feel good and Friday Mckinley and I got it!  So her first cold.  Luckily it is just a virus with no fever and just a sore throat and runny nose so she has been handling it pretty well!  Her incision is healed.  The stitches came out a couple weeks ago and her last echo and chest xray looked good!  We go back next week and hopefully not for again for a while!!!  

Potty's and the BIG 3-0

Okay so first of all I AM SO PROUD OF HARRISON!  Today I off-handedly told him that he should try going potty on the BIG BOY potty like us!  And really I have been avoiding this...the only reason why I suggested it was because I had to go and I didn't want to leave Harrison in the room alone with Mckinley because he has a tendency to play Patty-Cake with her arms and we still aren't supposed to play with her arms yet...so a distraction I was intending.

Well, he said sure!  So I stopped and said  "oh...well, I guess we should" (thinking that he would have never taken me up on it).  But I had changed his diaper recently so I said we could try before bathtime (because he always goes pee right away anyway so might as well get it in the right spot you know?!).

Anyway, he's asked me to hold on to him "so he wouldn't fall in" :) so i'm sitting there making sure he's not going to spray me when he really doesn't go and he looks like he's really trying!!  Poor guy, I'm thinking, now he's concentrating too hard he won't go.  He finally does a little and I ask if he's done and he said he thinks so and stand up and WALLA!  He's gone poo!!!  I was totally impressed with him!  Anyway...TOO much info I know but any mother would be proud for going BOTH the FIRST TIME HE ACTUALLY TRIES!  

This is great, but I don't know if I'm ready for a full training yet...so I may be mean but I don't know if I'll suggest it for a little while longer, unless of course he asks then I will take him.  

ANYWAYS....for a totally different topic, I was thinking about Harrison's 3rd bday coming  up and that I should find some early pics to post for him when I found a bag of old pic of me growing up!  SO I HAD AN IDEA...

Since I hit the BIG 30 last month, and you guys have been WAY TOO NICE TO ME on my blog lately, and we all know it not true so I thought we would get back to REALITY and show what a nerd I really am and put up some random pics of me growing up-- AWKWARD AND ALL YEARS  GOOD AND BAD PICS (well mainly bad!)!!  And some of you knew me at all these different stages so I thought it would be fun for you too see.  AND I got quite a laugh myself!  So IF YOU COMMENT...YOU CAN'T SAY ANYTHING NICE!

And here they are in RANDOM order (my scanner was being weird so some didn't work very well....)

A few lesson's I learned...again!

If you think to do something or most likely you are really prompted to do something....DO IT THEN,  not tomorrow, not next week.  Sometimes it is too late.

If your son runs out of the bedroom of the SLEEPING BABY YOU FINALLY LAID DOWN, and were washing the dishes for the first time in days...DON'T instantly get mad.  Because his response might be, "I was singing her songs to sleep."

Never sit down at the computer during the day because you will find a 2 year old coloring post-it notes in your lap while you try and type and look over his head to see the screen and the baby that you laid down will start to cry so you are now DONE with your blog :)!  

Hiccups :(

peach-fuzz
I don't know if you can see this but I took this pic because if you look at the screen in the background, the blue number shows her o2 level and its 97 without any help (which is normal)!!  
Mckinley's going home!
Harrison's spaceships--it fun to see what he's thinking about through his play...
One of my friends has a daughter that had open heart surgery and she has been such a help preparing me for this, including letting us borrow her daughters onesies that have button's down the front!  I would have never realized how hard it is to get someone dressed if your supposed to not move their arms!!  We have to "scoop" her up with her bum and head--not pick up under her arms.

Binky--$2

Blanket--$20

Couch--$1000

Daddy and baby--sleeping--priceless :)!


Mckinley decided that through everything we're not all that bad and has been smiling and "talking" to us--though I really try not to let her talk because she gets the hiccups and that has been one thing that bothers her the most--it really hurts her chest and she gets the saddest frown and cries the whole time :(!!!  

We've been doing well at home, though I CAN'T WAIT to break free of this 1500 sqft sanctuary!!  

Miracles never cease...

So WE'RE HOME!  Really that is enough said!  I am so glad to be home.

Can you believe that after OPEN HEART surgery she only had to spend 5 days in the hospital??Amazing to me!  When I last wrote and came home to shower, when I got back to the hospital they'd PULLED EVERYTHING OUT (almost)!   They took out her Chest tube (the big tube draining from her chest, where the surgery happened), the pacing wires (they had attached wires to her heart because after heart surgery a lot of times while the heart is healing it can have strange rhythms...too slow, too fast (this surgery usually has too fast problems)...so they have her attached to a machine that can pace the heart if this happens--about 5% of the time they actually have to put a pacer inside), and her arterial line!!! WOW!  In one hour she almost had a normal looking tummy!!!  

I was so happy they were out but kind of annoyed that they did it all when I couldn't be there for her. I had waited for the doctor rounds to run home, but they never came so I asked the nurse if she thought that they would come out today and Mckinley was still draining so she didn't think so.  I had to be back for an apt. with the cardiology NP so I didn't have a lot of time. They gave her morphine and said she did okay. So really that was the biggest thing we were waiting for!

That day she de-sated a couple times (her O2 level dropped to the 80s) and we gave a little O2 but after doing a chest x-ray that looked fine, they said that she still has mixing of blood due to the really small valve she had so that is going to be normal for her, and really we probably do that as well sometimes.  So that night I was able to start to nurse her finally!! She did great!  I was afraid to even hold her, because I didn't want to hurt her but she is a little trooper!  On Sat. we did another chest x-ray and echo--everything looked good, pulled her last line out and here we are!!  Finally able to start recovery at home!!!

We are again supposed to stay away from people for 6 weeks but then we can start leading a little bit more normal life!  Miracles never cease!!!! 

post op: day 3

Yesterday she really slept most the day and we needed to wake her up to eat, which is totally unlike her so it made me a little more nervous.  But I stayed the night and she started to wake up and we took off the O2 and she did fine!  So this morning she started to eat more and wake up more and is acting like herself again.  I guess her body finally realized that she needed to rest from her surgery.  She still has her chest tube and art. line and fem. line (checking pressures) but the other IVs stopped working so they will have to put another IV in and she has bruises and marks all over from their attempts before so that will be a little rough.  She is still doing really well and they moved her to the Anex of the PICU today since she is doing so well!  We are heading back to see her and meet with the cardiologist staff to learn how to do her dressing changes and other care for bringing her home so we can start here at the hospital to be ready for when she comes home.  Thanks for all the well wishing!!  Love you all!!  

Post op: day 2

So today was another miracle day!!!  Here are a few comments from all the Cardiologists that stopped by today...

* "Does she realize that she had Open Heart surgery yesterday?"

* "We are making her are new poster child for heart surgery and show all these other heart patients how to really recover!"

* Doc:  "so pink"

   Me: "yes we had to bring a pink blanket for her"

   Doc: "no no, SHE'S so pink!!"

* "She's thinking, "what just open heart surgery?  What more can you throw at me?  I can take it...give me more!"

So basically she's just blowing her recovery out of the water.  She started eating today and as mentioned earlier she loves to eat so she's already known as miss piggy--eating great even with a sore chest!  She got her folley catheter out today as well since she's doing well in that area also.  She's still swollen but she's not near as puffy as most kids are either!  So slowly, well actually not that slowly, she is getting out all her attachments!  they tried to take her O2 off but her sats dropped some so they kept that one on.  Shes taking morphine, tylenol and an iv drug like ibprofen for pain.

We are so blessed, just can't say that enough.  I had a really hard time a few times yesterday and was unable to hold back the tears, like when we had to give her to the anest. and watch her walk away for surgery, and when they took out the ET tube--it was uncomfortable for her.  I used to be able to hold those in...I could be strong for Kennedy, but it is just too close to home here.  I am so grateful for all the incredible blessings because I'm not as strong as I used to be and they'd have a basket case on their hands...and luckily Heavenly Father knows it!  Thanks for all your comments!  We love you guys!