Ryan had to fly out this afternoon for a couple days so we really didn't have any big plans. But since we are so far from Kennedy, I thought that I could run to the temple today before ryan when on the flight (it is so nice that it is open today...do they usually do that on Memorial day?)
Also, this morning Scott asked if Harrison wanted to go to the park right by us to use their race cars so of course Harrison was dying to go!
We have a couple remote control cars that he uses but we have to replace the batteries so often they don't work most the time! Now when anything breaks, Harrison always says it needs batteries...he actually caught me praying one time, I don't remember what it was for, but I told him that he can pray when he needs help and he will get help with whatever he needs so he went and said a prayer and he prayed the that his cars would get fixed. (well, I had to tell Ryan to get those cars fixed for him pronto!!)
They had a blast at the park! It finally was sunny and hot this weekend!! Perfect for a holiday weekend! We then went and ran over to A Sweet Affair to get lunch, which was yummy (especially the cookies!).
We ran home to get to the temple in time, but luckily I decided to call to make sure when it closed today and sadly it closed at 2 so we didn't make it :(. I really was dissapointed because I can't visit her grave either. So after we got Ryan off to the airport I took Harrison to Jamba Juice (for dinner...yum!) and decided to drive to the temple anyway. At least we could walk around it. I decided to take my camera to take a pic of the kid there and I'm so glad i did because of this...
Yes, I know that this is just a butterfly...and really it could be a moth for all I know, but I do know this--This was for me! After Kennedy's passed away I had a very special experience at her grave site with a baby bird. Kennedy loved all things living, all animals, and insects were her favorites...really they were her only friends when she wasn't able to play with other kids while on chemo, and call me crazy but I feel she was able to communicate with that bird...
Well, I really don't know how butterfly's normally do things but usually they flutter and fly around and as soon as you get close they fly away again. Well, this butterfly landed right by us and just sat there. We were still for a little while so it wouldn't fly away, but then how do you keep an almost 4 yr.old. and 1 yr. old from trying to get closer?? So Mckinely almost stepped on it and Harrison kept getting closer, cause he wanted to take it home! So it flew off, like you would expect but then it came right back and landed on the cement right by us, now I thought that might happen once,
and then maybe twice but then again? Its not like we were a juicy flower or anything!
Then even though the kids were getting close it stopped leaving and just sat there letting us watch it,
letting us get close and even eventually getting on Harrison's finger...
(I love it, the look of wonder on a 3 yr.old face (notice the jamba juice also on his face :))
So I knew as I saw that sweet bug (yes, sweet and bug in the same sentence) I knew that it was a tender mercy to me, to remind me of my darling Kennedy, that she is still out there, that she is still playing with bugs, that she still loves us.
What is also interesting to note is that I didn't mention Kennedy that whole time (though I thought about it), but driving home Harrison said from the back, "Mom, I miss Kennedy" right out of the blue. So I said, "So do I". And now what I wish I had asked him was Why...I wonder what his response would have been after being at the temple...so thin...so close...
